Tomorrow is Mothers' Day and it is my third. This Mothers' Day, like the one before it, I have been reflecting on my first Mothers' Day. Lily was born on the Thursday before Mothers' Day and the Saturday night before, some elves visited the NICU and left presents. Part of those present packs was a magnet bearing a poem. I sincerely can't tell you what else was contained in that little bag, but I've treasured that poem ever since.
My friend Jess has just delivered her second baby. A second little girl and a premmie. Baby Girl Maitland (name yet to be announced) was born at 35+6 and is doing as well as a full term bub. However, in the road of parenting a prem, even those who are as amazing and "late" term as Baby Girl Maitland, sometimes little bumps in the road are found. Whether it's as simple as some old biddy saying something ignorant about our child's weight, someone saying something just a little insensitive about our baby's early than expected delivery or our own frustrations at slow development.
Whenever I've had bumps in the road with Lily because she was premature, I've returned to this poem and it has been wonderful. So this is for Jess, on her third Mothers' Day and her first as a premmie mum. May your road be smooth, but if it is not, may you find the comfort in these words that I have.
How Preemie Moms Are Chosen
by Erma Bombeck
Did you ever wonder how the mothers of premature babies are chosen?
Somehow, I visualize God hovering over Earth, selecting his instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As he observes, he instructs his angels to take notes in a giant ledger.
"Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint, Matthew.
Forrest, Marjorie, daughter. Patron Saint, Celia.
Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint...give her Gerard. He's used to profanity."
Finally, he passes a name to an angel and smiles. "Give her a preemie."
The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy."
"Exactly," smiles God. "Could I give a premature baby a mother who knows no laughter? That would be cruel."
"But does she have the patience?" asks the angel.
"I don't want her to have too much patience, or she'll drown in a sea of self-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wear off, she'll handle it. I watched her today. She has that sense of self and independence so rare and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child I'm going to give her has a world of its own. She has to make it live in her world, and that's not going to be easy."
"But Lord, I don't think she even believes in you."
God smiles.
"No matter, I can fix that. This one is perfect She has just the right amount of selfishness."
The angel gasps, "Selfishness?! Is that a virtue?"
God nods. "If she can't separate herself from the child occasionally, she will never survive. Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with a child less than perfect. She doesn't know it yet, but she is to be envied. She will never take for granted a spoken word. She will never consider a step ordinary. When her child says momma for the first time, she will be witness to a miracle and know it. I will permit her to see clearly the things I see-- ignorance, cruelty, prejudice-- and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life because she is doing my work as surely as she is here by my side."
"And what about her Patron Saint?" asks the angel, his pen poised in the air.
God smiles. "A mirror will suffice."
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